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The past few years I have only been able to dress while staying in hotels when I travel for business. Mid-September I will be going to Alexandria, VA for a two-day conference and I will be dressing at night. After I arrive I will put on panties and a bra and go down to the hotel restaurant for dinner. I'm sure if someone looks closely at me they will notice that I will be wearing a bra. Maybe some guy will ask to join me and then go back to my room or his room for some fun! At the very least people will laugh which turns me on since I love being humiliated. If no one joins me then after dinn… Читати далі

Been thinking about this a lot recently. I have a very small penis which I like to think of more as a clitoris than a cock. Real men have cocks, sissies like me have tiny useless clits. It's about an inch and a half long when soft and when I can get hard, which is rare, about 4 inches. Most of the time I an unable to get hard without the help of Viagra no matter how turned on I am. I just leak pre-cum into my panties when I get excited. After an hour on here or other sites my panties are soaked! When I masturbate I usually just rub myself through my panties like a woman does. I'm not ashamed… Читати далі

I'm old enough to remember the internet BEFORE the web. I started grad school in the fall of 1993 and met a kinky female friend who I felt comfortable enough with to tell her about Monica. She introduced me to text-based newsgroups on something called USENET that had names like alt.sex.fetish.bondage, alt.binaries.pictures.bondage, alt.sex.fetish.crossdressing, and hundreds of others. I got internet access through my school and started reading through message posts in these groups. Pictures were available as downloadable text files that needed to be converted into images which I learned how to… Читати далі

When my mother was pregnant with me, everyone, including her, thought I was going to be a girl. This is WAY before ultrasound was even invented let alone in use. So my parents had a name ready: Monica Angela. Maybe my mother at least was disappointed because she already had a son and wanted a daughter instead.....she never quite said that, but throughout my life would remind me quite frequently that I "was supposed to be a girl". Imagine being told that, especially during puberty. Did that have anything to do with out I turned out? Probably. To me it made going through her lingerie drawer and… Читати далі

I first started crossdressing in 6th grade with my mother's clothes and makeup and to my knowledge no one knew. Maybe my mother suspected something but she never confronted me. . When I went to middle school the next year I got bullied by another boy and some of his friends who decided I was a gay sissy. Every day he would seek me out and ask me how I like being a cocksucking sissy fa**got or whether I was wearing panties and a bra under my boy clothes. They would laugh at me while they called me all sorts of degrading names. They spread rumors that I was gay. At first I was totally humiliated… Читати далі

When I was single and living alone and dressing regularly, I made sure I bought the latest copies of Allure and Glamour and studied them. I bought them at the grocery store and loved to see the look on the face of the cashier, especially if I were also buying tampons, pads and makeup. I know they knew they were for me and really didn't care. Once I got home and changed into my feminine wear, I went through the magazines and tried my best to learn makeup and fashion tips. A female friend who was the first person I introduced Monica to donated a bunch of back issues of Allure, Cosmo, and Glamo… Читати далі

I regularly spend my Friday and Saturday nights with a combination of anal training along with watching sissy training videos. I have privacy issues at home but when I know I will be left alone late at night, I start off with a nice hard plastic prostate plug which I wear for at least an hour. I lube it up and push it in all the way. Walking around with it in feels incredible! It does not slide out like some butt plugs do, and it really does stimulate my prostate. S0 I can pretty much do anything while I wear it without anyone noticing. I can feel myself slowly leaking into my panties after on… Читати далі

I don't get to dress regularly anymore but when I was single I dressed everyday. I was in graduate school at the time and every day when I came home the first thing I did was to take off my yucky male clothes and put on pantyhose or panties and a bra. Then I'd put my wig on and pick something out to wear for the evening. Topped it all off with lipstick and some sexy heels or boots and I was ready to make dinner. Thinking back, I had more women's clothing then men's clothing! After dinner I'd clean up and get ready for the evenings activities. It was the mid 90s and internet porn was becoming… Читати далі