Discovering internet porn

I'm old enough to remember the internet BEFORE the web. I started grad school in the fall of 1993 and met a kinky female friend who I felt comfortable enough with to tell her about Monica. She introduced me to text-based newsgroups on something called USENET that had names like alt.sex.fetish.bondage, alt.binaries.pictures.bondage, alt.sex.fetish.crossdressing, and hundreds of others. I got internet access through my school and started reading through message posts in these groups. Pictures were available as downloadable text files that needed to be converted into images which I learned how to do. These picture files (binaries) were sometimes huge for the day, like up to 2 MB, and took FOREVER to download at 14.4 kbit/sec. Anyway, as I've mentioned before I spent my evenings and nights fully dressed. I sat in front my my computer for hours downloading binaries and saving them for future fun. I had separate folders for crossdressing, BDSM, sexy women to serve as role models, blowjobs/cum, and men. I saved them (stupidly) to a Zip Disk thinking the 100 MB space would be enough. The problem was that Zip Disks were not designed for constant reading and writing. What I typically did was use a program to run a slide show of my images when I wanted to sit back and masturbate to them. After a couple of years the disk failed and I lost everything. So I had to start all over again.

By this time the web was available and images were easier to find. I started saving them to my hard drive and then transferred them to a new iMac after grad school when I started my first job in 1998. I still have many of these images today supplemented by the ones I found in the old Yahoo groups and Flickr. Once upon a time one could download videos from xhamster so I have a bunch of them from here. Now I download images and videos from a variety of sites and will spend time on Friday and Saturday nights if I'm not on here viewing them. My favorites on here are pretty much what I enjoy.

I use a lot of them for sissy training. Aside from videos and images specifically meant for sissy training, I love to rub my clit through my panties watching women giving blowjobs and getting cum in their mouths and on their faces. I always watch them imagining I were the woman with a big hard cock in their mouth. I always envy the woman and I never wish I were the man. I am totally a bottom - even if I were with another CD I would rather be the one being fucked. I'm the one who should be on my knees sucking a big hard cock or bent over and having my sissy pussy fucked hard.

The other type of image and video I love are of hot men and hard cocks. Masculine men, especially men who wear leather, really turn me on. Show me a hairy shirtless guy in leather pants with a big hard cock and I will melt. Last weekend I was edging myself while wearing a prostate plug to a slideshow of men and made it for about 10 minutes before I couldn't hold back anymore. I always have a shot glass ready for when I cum and I always swallow my cum.