Power dynamics

the psychological power dynamic is as as import and exciting as the physical event. I imagine we could do years of therapy and analyze all of the traumatic events that led us here. It may be more than we can digest in this lifetime. I know there is a primal gravity that pulls me. I resist, but it has never gone away. Do you stay safe? Or have you gotten yourself in life threatening situation?

I read "Pimp" a while back. It seems that the BDSM aspect is what drives the relationships. They are distracted by drugs and money but it seems the ultimate driver is control. There is an intense amount of control on both sides. I am not really able to delude myself to the degree of letting myself destroy anyone. I actually don't want to engage in evil. There is that vampire inside me though. It wants to drink all the blood. It mostly remains in a state of dormancy.